Braffits Creek, A Thread in the Great Basin

Braffits Creek is a thin green thread stitched into a country most people only know from the airplane window; a wash of brown and sage and distance. Up close, the place smells like dust warming in the sun, like willow leaves and wet stone, like something living quietly where life isn’t supposed to be. The water doesn’t boast. It moves with the patience of old stories, slipping past cottonwood roots and basalt bones, keeping its voice low. The thing about the Great Basin is this: it doesn’t drain to any ocean. Everything stays. Water falls as snow or rain, wanders …

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My 44 Year Old Hands

25 years this blog has weathered space and time and it was offline for a couple years with no backup. Thanks to an older backup XML file and the Wayback Machine, I’ve been able to restore the original journal that spans a quarter century of my life. This poem is a time warp from the poem I wrote, which is in the archives, titled: My 22 Year Old Hands… My 44 Year Old Hands These are my 44-year-old hands. Desert hands. Sun-cured. Split. Salted with years. They don’t move fast anymore, but they move like water in a dry wash …

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Sonoran Spring with the White Wings

The White-Winged Sonoran SpringBy Nathan Cowlishaw In the desert sun, where the cacti grow,And the winds of change, forever blow,The White-Winged Doves, they come to know,The secrets of nature, that ebb and flow.Their wings a blur, as they take flight,A symphony of grace, in the morning light,Their destination clear, and in sight,To pollinate the saguaros, with all their might.They land on the spines, with a gentle touch,Their feathers ablaze, with the desert’s hush,And as they work, it’s almost too much,The beauty of nature, a sacred crutch.Their beaks dip in, to the nectar’s hold,A moment of bliss, in the desert’s gold,And …

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Fresh from the Transfer

Mind Opening Portalexploring the possibilitiesas infinite as they have becomeas soon as I had broken the windowsof everything I knew. Then, as if divinity stepped in,there he was with all thebeauty that he brought with himto give to his chosenunconditionally. Sentient spirits came fromout of the thundering abyssfrom the deep billows of the stormand down belowall was calm and mesmerizing. Somewhere out of this chaoscame a powerful peace that predatesour time and placethat came into our spaceand brought us together. It’s quite extraordinary,this unknown schemethat is more natural and mysticthan earth-made systemsAnd into this unknown we venture. by Nathan Cowlishaw

My Life with UFOs

I have noticed how many UFO Buffs get interested in the topic for a short while then get bored. Since 2013 now, I’ve been steadily dedicated to Ufology because of three unique close encounters that I witnessed with UFOs (or should I say intelligences?) that began in 2013. This didn’t make me a buff – it forever changed me into an obsessed researcher and the phenomenon haunts me these days. These incidents changed my life for better or worse. I believe my friend, Travis Walton’s story and many others who have either endured or were enlightened by these events. Many …

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Finding The Other Person

These days, I see other people posting deep things on social networks like Facebook, and I start to think how vain it is to put important content or anything with a more serious personal tone on a place like a corporate social network. Have we become such frail and hollow beings that we no longer find independence? This is why it is important for me to have a journal and a space to pen my more personal and intimate thoughts with a maturity that no social network is worthy of. While stating the obvious above, here’s what’s on my mind… …

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She is my new muse… An artist is she…

I can hear the soft whisper of the wind as it gently brushes the window blinds and evening starts to set-in… The Robins are singing in the late afternoon summer. Fine sediment is blowing in from the dust bowl west of town. And I’m just thinking… thinking about a lot of things. Life is full of beauty with the simple, if you just let. them. be.

Originality in a Sea of Carbon Copies

When looking for jewelry, watches, stuff like that, it’s hard to find ONE piece that stands out in an ocean of carbon copies at all the pawn shops, thrift stores, and jewelry storefronts. Human beings are very similar. It’s hard to find someone with the attractive nature of being a rugged individualist. So have the confidence to be different and separate yourself from the sheeple. I’m looking for the perfect timepiece with imperfect characteristics that compliment my beautiful turquoise watch band. 🙂

Be a Citizen Journalist & Know the Beauty

The beauty of this world cannot be suppressed. A strong desire in humans to protect & defend their freedom also plays big role in this web of life. Certain inalienable liberties were gifted to us by the Creator and CANNOT be taken away or forfeited by any government or institution but sometimes we have to fight to protect them. There’s an evil on our planet that feels too unreal to acknowledge and is often grossly overlooked. However, it has always been there and instinctively challenges our freedom if it goes unchecked (think runaway government, greed, crony capitalism, etc) and so …

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Concerning Individual Beauty

To me… Beauty runs much deeper than the friggin skin and much deeper than the human spirit; it is determined by someone’s outlook. Foolishness is ugly, and if you don’t have beauty in your heart and outlook, then you are an ugly person. It’s that simple to formulate!

Horse Sense

I’m one of the last and youngest of a dying breed that has any lick of horse-sense left with which these newer generations cannot even mentally comprehend! All greenhorn city slickers can just ignore this status entirely because they don’t even have a clue. As Joe Dirt would joyfully chant; “Keep on keeping on.”

First Southern Utah Leak: I Believe in Wikileaks

Who gives a crap whether drama is useful or not or whether people try to tell you how to act, how to behave, how to conform. I really don’t give a rat’s butt when people tell me what to do, what to think, and what to believe. I believe in the truth and getting to the bottom of it at any cost. This is a cause that is worth fighting for. Organizations like Wikileaks are trying to keep world governments free and transparent. They are trying to be a voice & power for the people, to protect their liberties. Julian …

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My Experience As An Outlaw

Let’s start a political movement. Several ideas keep flooding my head and I can no longer ignore them. I have a dream for America, and it’s starts in my local community. Conservative hill-billy Southern Utah, here I come. Consider me both conservative and middle-of-the-road but I have ideas that run deeper than civilization and I intend to focus this political energy into a grassroots movement. The first batch of issues I wish to address are as follows; government accountability & transparency, police misconduct, racism & discrimination in the community and asking the “hard questions” to politicians who we elect into …

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A Few Words To Me from My Father

A Child…. When you start to talk about the wind in your hair…. I know it is because you are running from life… So run….. You are very talented though! You write like Edward Abbey… your pictures are breathtaking…. you play a mean flute tune… Your the best damn tour guide…. You are kind…. You are caring…. You’re so talented that you don’t see it…. you’re passionate…. and these things I am envious of…. They make you rich….. They make you unique…. and I could learn a thing or two from ya…. I proud of these things….in my son…

Heading to Delta Tomorrow

In the morning, I am getting up early and driving three hours to Delta to sell some Alabaster to a rock shop there. Yup, that’s how I am going to pay the rent this month. My favorite stretch of highway is between Milford and Deseret, Utah, which is seventy miles without services and very desolate. If I have enough time to spare this will mean plenty of desert landscape shots through my lens tomorrow. On another note, I’m heading to the bottom of the Grand Canyon with my best friend, Omar and a few ladies this weekend. Hopefully we’ll stop …

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Early Morning Drive

About 5 AM this morning I threw on Levis and Redwing boots and rushed into the early February cold before the hint of dawn. As I fired up the Jeep it was so frigid that I quickly retreated into the house waiting for the engine to warm up. The day before, after church, I drove into the desert to plow in four-wheel-drive through fresh snow and get a good scenic view of the aftermath of a big blizzard that had moved through on Saturday. After turning on a random dirt road, I drove about 50 miles cutting fresh tracks in …

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My Hat’s Tipped to Libya’s Freedom Fighters

Libya becomes bloodbath as Moammar Gadhafi begins lose grip on power. I support the Libyan people in the uprising against Gadhafi’s regime. For me, the serious unrest is reminiscent of a scene from the movie, Braveheart, where Sir William Wallace screams FREEEEEDOM right before losing his head after a long, arduous and disheartening struggle. Let this be a reminder that freedom often comes with a lethal sacrifice in human blood. Gadhafi is an evil man who is not going to give up without a deadly fight. I can feel the courage, and the thirst for freedom that Libyans are feeling. …

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Gazing into the Firelight

My heart is quiet as I listen to the dark winds moving in from the west as the sun drops in the crimson purple abyss. There is a soft twilight mixed with the smell of cold juniper frost and the sound of a monster walking in the woods. The branches of the pinions creak as the night envelops the desert hills. My imagination takes a journey into the past, to the most ancient times, and I can see them flint-knapping and throwing unused chips of augite into the dirt. One old man is building a fire that grows strong and …

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Decolonizing America?

It’s not impossible for Uncle Sam to change his outlook & decolonize. In fact, I think he could change his whole opinion & quit seeing the world from the typical ethnocentric, westernized standpoint. Our multi-cultural nation could enter an enlightened renaissance never seen before in the history of civilization!

Owls, Coyotes, Memories and Dreams

My Amigo, Omar and I traveled out to Milford, Utah. We stopped off at an old abandoned mining mill and smelter out in the boonies. There inside a decrepit torn building with a partially collapsed roof, we saw a Great Horned owl which flew out of the ruins and then returned a few seconds later. It wasn’t very far above our heads, about 15 feet and It landed up in the roof rafters. It looked back down on us with ruffled feathers and a quiet stance. This has been apart of a strange series of events that I’ve noticed over …

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My Strong Heart

First off, I finally have something to write about and it concerns my earlier life. This is what I call introspection. When I was in grade school I hopelessly teased, ridiculed, and made fun of. In the sixth grade I wore a hat that proclaimed, “I love my Grandpa!” The other school children made fun of me because I dressed like a country boy and was living in Salt Lake City at the time. Basically, I was country when country wasn’t cool and I didn’t jive with city kids. I wasn’t good at sports, neither. So the combination made me …

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Aliens and Country Store Ice Cream

We drove out to Area 51 in the middle of the night which turned into a big misadventure. Actually, it wasn’t a misadventure at all. Well it was, but it wasn’t. And it wasn’t even my idea. You see, there’s this girl I was studying with at Southern Utah University and after we finished up she suggested that we drive to Area 51 in Southern Nevada in the middle of the night. I don’t think she realized that I would do such a thing. Most guys aren’t crazy. Well, she’s crazy and I realized how much fun it would be. …

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Nate’s Definition of Racism

Racism isn’t just random acts of hate; everyone is infected with it. Racism is ignorance and peoples’ refusal to walk in the shoes of people who are different than them. Racism is apathy and a refusal to learn both sides of the story. Racism is the refusal to ask hard questions. Last of all, I see a racist as someone who believes so strongly in race that they fight extra hard trying to defend a false construct.

Be the Captain of Your Ship

Life is good but how do you rid yourself of bad behavior like procrastination? It’s not healthy or desirable. The worst kind of activity is unproductivity. Life is about setting goals and progress happens one step at a time. It’s not a simple matter because it takes a conscious effort and some faith. Being on Earth every day is the ultimate experience but it’s hard to know the outcome. My father always said; “the choices you make now will ripple into your future.” I’ve felt the ripples of my choices and they were unanticipated. NATE, you’re time on this planet …

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Love on the Backburner

Don’t think of love cause it’s not real. A little rest would do me good. I’m ridin this ol’ Greyhound from Utah to Arizonaland and it isn’t too bad. I close my eyes or watch the clouds out the tinted windows. Don’t think of love. Just listen to the old timer pickin the banjo in the headphones, singing the Crawdad Song. There isn’t any going back, cept to moving forward and keeping a real dream. Because beauty comes deep from the center. I’ve been tellin a story of how the impossible happened, But a story is all it was. The …

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Landscapes & Wilderness

The way I see landscape is the simplicity of it; away from the commotion. Most tourists and travelers hit the national parks around my homeland of Southern Utah but as a local I travel to areas that foreign outsiders never see. I look for surviving elements of the old west and before; I seek out original places that seem to withstand modern colonialism. These places remain very beautiful long after everything else has changed or morphed. Of course, I do not believe in pristine wilderness but the wild in whatever shape or form still speaks volumes, even where humans do …

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Tower of Stars

We are selfish and lonely creatures. We get too busy with our miniature lives. In a static world of big cities and forgotten dreams we tend to trample over more important things and forget others are feeling the exact same heartbreak. In the commotion I stand back and listen to the buzzing static and yearn for silence. So many opportunities wait to be seized. Often we simply overlook such chances or don’t realize that they’ve come and gone. I have passed up many good opportunities in my life and now ponder on what happened and what went wrong? It’s called …

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Everett Ruess and Chris McCandless

There are two individuals that have influenced me heavily in their outlook; Chris McCandless and Everett Ruess. Both discovered truth in ways most will never imagine. They saw a beauty as distant and far away as the stars. It was ignited through their visions and words. Everette explains my sentiments so well and I have affinity for his thoughts: “I have always been unsatisfied with life as most people live it. Always I want to live more intensely and richly. why muck and conceal one’s true longings and loves, when by speaking of them one might find someone to understand …

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