From Liberal to Conservative to Decolonized

I was Liberal until I became educated & that turned me Conservative until I learned more and realized the whole damn thing was bullshit. That’s when I started to unlearn over the next two decades and realized everything I had ever been taught, indoctrinated with, and fed was BS – So I started breaking the windows of everything I knew, or thought I knew, and that’s where the beginning of the real education started. This unlearning is where true #Decolonization began, which is a positive term for me, because it was a re-awakening! Two decades later, I’m still deprogramming and rewiring as I learn the real truth of the bigger picture. That’s how F-ed up the Western Vulture is! Yet the members of that dominant culture think they know something while their science tries to discover things… Weird. Photo by me, captured in the #Bootheel of #NewMexico of an old abandoned christian church!

Western Culture & White Privilege

The majority of Americans or European Americans enjoy this little thing called, White Privilege. I will call it Wasicu Privilege or Colonial Privilege. Anglo Americans are all super privileged because we are on the receiving end, as recipients, of a centuries old unjust and illegal occupation – enjoying the fruits of our labors in the Stolen Lands of First Nations! The are still here, surviving and still fighting for a real voice in that system which gives them no actual representation in 2020. That is privilege, my friends! That’s the truth as I see it in YOUR Empire of Lies and Denials that continue to benefit YOU. Welcome to the same old America!

Deeper in Metaphysical Southwest of Mars Arizona

This morning my maroon-headed humming bird friend with the inch long beak was sitting on the oleander outside my window waiting for me to say hello. For a month before he was following me on morning walks in North Phoenix. I purchased two nectar feeders and I think that’s what he wanted from me? Now, it’s his turf and pesters me when the syrup gets too thick or runs out. In the same area, I have over thirty columnar cacti, mostly Trichocereus types; Bridgesii, Cuzcoensis, Peruvianus, Pachanoi; growing near the window. In my room I have three grow lights with 50-60 cactus plants and succulents from all over the Americas; Ariocarpus & Turbinicarpus plants to Saguaro seedlings growing at 2-3 inches in hight. The goal is to secure some land or find a way to get it and get my cactus friends a permanent home in the beautiful earth somewhere where I can look up at see the Milky Way at night. Obviously, that wouldn’t be the city, correct?

Times have been rough. I’m living in Phoenix Metropolitan Area right now and we are now four months into the Covid-19 Pandemic (Dystopia) which shelved my job as an Arizona based tour guide to the local parks and monuments and I’m currently rethinking that line of work. Coronavirus killed Tourism in Southern Arizona for the time being.

The weather has been paradise in what locals call The Valley. I’ve been in Arizona for about a year and acquired more plants than I ever intended to collect when I moved here. I mention metaphysical in the title of this post because intuition led me here. This is the next step after a period of healing in my former life in Utah. I’m supposed to be collecting cactus now and my ambitions have changed since moving deeper into the American Southwest leaving the Beehive State in the dust. If I move once again, it will be New Mexico; probably the Southern end because this collection of plant nation ‘friends’ have to go with me wherever I wind up because they count on me for their survival. I would not want to build a great big greenhouse at higher elevations, so the goal is land and finding the money to buy it.

Aliens in My Early Life

In my early life, not sure exactly when – some source of intelligence came to me when I was a child. It was not traumatic. It was nothing like being abducted or taken against my will and I was not violated and nothing questionable was committed against me. I have a definitive connection to the Universe outside of our planetary world here on Earth as a result. Whoever they were, wherever they came from; somehow they were involved in my upbringing. I have to give credit when it is due; they had profound influence during my development. There is no other way to explain why I am on this UFO/ET Road, now. I didn’t wind up on this path obsessively until 2013 – when I started witnessing real UFOs in the sky, especially one that was a triangle craft in close proximity on the boundary of the Jicarilla-Apache Reservation Southwest of Dulce, New Mexico in 2014. These events caused earlier memories and recollections in my life to resurface. They are basically telling me, “We Are Still Here!”

Like Humanity, there is good and evil throughout our history with examples like Hitler and the Third Reich, and righteous individuals like Jesus Christ. All these individuals were prime sources of influence on mankind and polar opposites of good and evil. We often blame Lucifer, the Christian Devil as being the source of these evils, and Lucifer is also an Intelligence. The ones I speak of exist both in human and non-human form and when asked whether these intelligences are good and noble or evil and hostile – I respond that they are all the above. Like humanity, there is all sorts of good and evil in all of the Creator’s Universe and I attribute the “Most High” of the Intelligences as the Creator – or what Christians would call God and Muslims call Allah!

We are not alone in the Universe and I think the Creator intended it to be this way. We are being visited and influenced by other intelligences whether they be of light or darkness; there is a balance along with the many shades which accompany these BEINGS. Some of them use technology that is far more advanced than what is available to Humanity’s disposal. Some of this tech has been gifted to us as well, only to be locked up in secrecy.

All I know is that I am barely scratching the surface and I have a lot to learn and there is a lot that I do know about but do not fully understand yet. I have seen some some of these Intelligences, beings, and some of their technologies. I’m comfortable acknowledging this in a very grounded way. Their influence in my life has been very positive with no malevolence but there is a lot of it steeped up in uncrackable mystery. I get a feeling that in due time, more information and knowledge will come to me along with many others who have had these experiences or events that are closely related.

In my teen years I was backpacking solo into the hills. A few of my friends thought I was either suicidal or crazy but I was quite the opposite. While I was out there in the desert, or the mountains, all by myself, powerful things happened to me. These experiences changed my life forever, and the course of my destiny. It made me who I am today. There’s an Mormon adage/scripture that says; “By their fruits, ye shall know them,” and these beings brought about changes in my life that were for the better. Sometimes these episodes left me spooked, startled, completely at a loss and deep in fear but when I came to grips with the experiences, I quickly realized that these events were teaching and preparing me for who knows what? It was something that is coming at a future date. The truth is though, I am an artist, photographer and writer because of these beings and intelligences and their visitations.

If you read through this journal and go through some of my poems/pros written years ago, the words will shed more light on what it is I’m talking about.

by Nathan Cowlishaw

She is my new muse… An artist is she…

I can hear the soft whisper of the wind as it gently brushes the window blinds and evening starts to set-in… The Robins are singing in the late afternoon summer. Fine sediment is blowing in from the dust bowl west of town. And I’m just thinking… thinking about a lot of things.

Life is full of beauty with the simple, if you just let. them. be.

Originality in a Sea of Carbon Copies

When looking for jewelry, watches, stuff like that, it’s hard to find ONE piece that stands out in an ocean of carbon copies at all the pawn shops, thrift stores, and jewelry storefronts. Human beings are very similar. It’s hard to find someone with the attractive nature of being a rugged individualist. So have the confidence to be different and separate yourself from the sheeple. I’m looking for the perfect timepiece with imperfect characteristics that compliment my beautiful turquoise watch band. 🙂

Be a Citizen Journalist & Know the Beauty

The beauty of this world cannot be suppressed. A strong desire in humans to protect & defend their freedom also plays big role in this web of life. Certain inalienable liberties were gifted to us by the Creator and CANNOT be taken away or forfeited by any government or institution but sometimes we have to fight to protect them. There’s an evil on our planet that feels too unreal to acknowledge and is often grossly overlooked. However, it has always been there and instinctively challenges our freedom if it goes unchecked (think runaway government, greed, crony capitalism, etc) and so most people never take time to learn the truth and remain ignorant. They say those that don’t learn their own history are doomed to repeat it.

The dark shadow that now envelops our world has been here since the beginning and should be expected, but is unrealized. The current injustices unfolding everywhere have happened before, just not at this current scale of destruction. I know for a fact that the depredations against Native Americans (American Indians) in the past would eventually inflict all American Citizens especially through greed; consider the Patriot Act, and the new 2012 Federal NDAA Defense Bill that passed the US Senate, recently. This bill will declare the American homeland a battle field where American citizens are arrested if they are “suspected” of being a terrorist, or sympathizing with any terrorist group. Heck, if you act “belligerent” they can accuse you of being a terrorist and put you in endless detention without due process & without being charged for a crime. You’ll be denied a lawyer and locked up without a trial by jury! While bypassing Miranda Rights, this bill also justifies the torture of citizens while shredding the Bill of Rights. This has forced me to start pondering how we wound up with such treasonous senators and how we voted them into office!? How could they even consider passing such a dangerous, malicious bill? Many of the same injustices brought about by tyranny have harmed millions of people. Rogue governments have murdered millions and now this darkness is knocking at the door of the American people, fully armored. Surely, it was just a matter of time…

Over the years, I’ve spent my life wondering and traveling through beautiful isolated places that are unknown and often mysterious. I’ve tried to ignore the bad things in the world. Now, as Americans begin to lose their freedom & way of life (like their predecessors, the First Nations) at the hands of this dark wind (also known as Westward Expansion, colonialism, Manifest Destiny, and now greed) it’s important that we still have these beautiful places and a powerful strength within the human spirit to fight against this evil called greed. As it starts to entrench the Earth, and enslave humanity, it is just one of the beginning chapters of a cataclysmic change that’s going to arrive very soon. In fact, many non-western based cultures have been expecting this change for hundreds if not thousands of years.

There is a reason why all these terrible and unbelievable natural disasters are unfolding; massive earthquakes, rogue tsunamis, climate change, unruly wildfires, and rumors of deadly diseases. The Earth Mother is revolting. It is time for humanity to play a major role in this great change. In my gut I know a lot of people are going to suffer as a result. I cannot tell you exactly what’s going to happen because I don’t have the answers but is time for us two-leggeds to rise up and fight against this dark wind. This is a test of our humanity and I believe the Creator is fully aware of our struggles and sufferings.

As an LDS Mormon, we have our own prophecies and spiritual leaders who are guiding us in the last days. This however is my personal poetic and spiritual message to the world. It comes straight from my heart! My grandfather was a spiritual guide and an important patriarch of our family and he would always remind us to “stand ye in holy places and do what’s right in the world.” I don’t need to explain all those age-old teachings about loving your neighbor and your enemy. We all know the basics. He warned me for several years of the things that would ensnare the world and change everything as we know it, forever. We are here at the crossroads. We have entered the Event Horizon. There is no turning around, or going back. All we have is the courage to move forward with fortitude! We have to be very bold, generous, and nonviolent.

We all have to face this and survive it. So get ready. For me, all the answers lay in the wilderness. Even Jesus of Nazareth fasted for forty days and forty nights in the wild when contemplating serious spiritual matter. The rolling hills and canyons have been my haven from any uncertainty. Every time I go in the mountains, I feel like I’m returning home. The beauty of the land plays a central role to my beliefs and I share some of that affinity with my indigenous brothers and sisters who have survived and thrived into the last days, despite genocide, racism, and all the colonialism. They have strong ties with the past with their understandings of time and place and how all of history is interwoven into the present and future. I love all my friends, and all the people who have made a difference in my life, both culturally and spiritually. Mainstream America could learn a thing or two from Native people, many of whom still maintain and practice their original traditional lifeways.

To wrap this up, the world as we know it, is coming to an end. Note this, it is going to happen! So prepare. It is time for us to wake up and acknowledge the reality or parish in the tide. Pray to the Creator for the world and for mercy upon all of us. Learn and dig for the deepest truth. Make it a passion and teach yourself how to survive. Teach your friends what you know so that they can start preparing. People can survive if their heart is in the right place. That much, I do know! The Creator will know what’s in your heart. The evil and wickedness in this world will all be destroyed.

It is time for every soul to know the truth and begin asking hard questions. This is the test. Seek out the facts and really learn. Become a citizen journalist and know the importance of spreading information and facts so that more people become objective, informed and proactive. The mainstream media cannot be trusted. Their campaign has been to dumb down our friends and loved ones. It’s up to every two-legged to become a journalist. Start learning the ethics of journalism and get to work learning the truth and educating other curious minds. Information & exposing truth are the most powerful tools to change our world. This is apart of the test to see whether humanity will act accordingly.

I don’t have all the answers, I’m just going on my gut with this because I’m still looking for the truth. The more I learn, the less I know! If I am compelled to act it’s because of what I know. In the end, I’m just another two-legged with a good heart…

Let’s not forget all the warrior spirits who have fought and died for our freedoms and the beauty that we have in the world today. Let’s remember them and realize that it is our duty to protect our freedoms and everything that is beautiful in this sacred world.

Horse Sense

I’m one of the last and youngest of a dying breed that has any lick of horse-sense left with which these newer generations cannot even mentally comprehend! All greenhorn city slickers can just ignore this status entirely because they don’t even have a clue. As Joe Dirt would joyfully chant; “Keep on keeping on.”