It felt like summer again, here in Saint George. Last night it was real mild. I’m heading north this weekend to spend some time with my grandparents. Last night I drove west of Saint George, into Nevada again, just to go see some Joshua Trees out there. Man is it an amazing lost world. There is so much beauty, The highway cuts through the desert, but it still feels primordials.
At home last night, I did some writing on my computer, and ate Pinion Nuts while enjoying the late night warmth. It is the middle of October and feels like May. I’m pondering my life here in Saint George, and I don’t know where I will be a year from now? My destiny is unforeseen which worries me. There are times that I’ve felt uncertain about my future, but right now it remains largely unknown. I have no plans or goals to follow. My life seems correct at the moment, but could I adapt to sudden changes? If things were to morph, how would I adjust? I need to develop a plan of survival in case terrible events come to pass. Natural disasters are increasing. The intensity is startling.
Almost certainly, I can feel the head winds of a dark storm creeping into my reality, and into the reality of others in the Southwest. Things are not always going to be pleasant. The wilderness is a real escape from the world. Every journey digs deeper into my soul. No matter what happens, I am feeling safe and content. If things change, I need to be there for my family, to help them and protect them. They are all I have in this temporal world. But the desert seems to purify my worries and it may preserve me. There are places out there, where nobody ever goes, that I can find peace. Hopefully my loved ones can find peace in the wilderness, if things came crashing down.